Cremation

I think cremation is romantic. After I die, I would like to be cremated and sprinkled in the ocean close to Greece or somewhere.
I never thought about that stuff. I just don't want to be in the small pot. :(
It has been for a while but it seems like I don't care anything. So many things don't matter to me at all. I just hear wah wah wah wah or blah blah blah.
So boring. I cannot find fun in anything. Even being flirted or going on date, I just want to be by myself and don't want to be said"don't be sad. you will meet other person. You are just going through the phase". Because I know. And I know these people are just caring about me and being nice to me. I really appreciate that but right now, being said those things make me stressed out. I just need hugs, good listener and non-boy-related conversation(I mean, meeting new guy stuff). People have so much complaints in their lives and they even have partners who listen to them.Why they need to do that to me? when I need someone, you are always being a stranger. I guess it is THE PHASE that I should be going through, right? I guess. I should stop complaining.