.....

I know, this sounds such a cliche. Color doesn't look right, everything is almost tastless and I don't feel right.

That how I feel right now.
you know, it is really aching. Only people who went through this know but hearts actually hurts.

waking up 5 in the morning and being sad and angry is not fun, you know. How can I stop this?

And I just don't want to be emotional right now. I don't want to feel anything. I don't wanna be sad, crazy, angry, happy, so on.

I just wanna be empty and by myself. Filled with me.
I knew it, I just ignored. that is why this hurts so bad.