I don't remember

I just don't remember how I have lived. it is almost like I became a blind all the sudden.
I don't know what to do, how to do. All I know is pain my heart. It is actually hurting.

you know, everyone says "this is not the end of your life" or " there is better person for you". I know. I guess there is. but I cannot move on like you guys do. I need so much energy and am so depressed, you have no idea. so don't tell me you understand. You don't feel how I feel. I don't process things like you do. I am so sad and lonely. That is all. I wanna be alone but I don't want to feel alone. That is all. Leave me alone but don't forget me.

whatever people say, it sounds like "wah wah wah" or " Blah blah blah". If you don't have time, please don't mind me. I just need someone who can spend time for me. Just for now.

I don't know what was right things to do. But I try to believe my decision was right and I did my best.
I don't care anything right now. I just have to care about my health. That is all. please don't tell me "be happy" please just let me be sad and get it over with.

I will be happy person like i was used to be. SO just give me a break now.