It has been a long time

I have been sad for a while, huh? I stopped writing about it. I just didn't care about myself.
I was happy for someone and sad for someone. I ignored how I feel What makes ME happy.

I was so busy to make someone happy.

Suppressing my feeling didn't make things any better. I almost hate myself. But You know what? I think I have some goodness in me.

So I decided to like myself again and will stop ignore myself for a while. I will be a little bit self-centered person. I think I deserve it.

But I wanted to thank all my friends try to help me out. Thank you. If I didn't have you guys, I have no idea what I am doing right now.

And I wanted to thank my boyfriend that let me love him so much. It didn't work out between us but now I know I can love somebody this deep. It was really nice and warm feeling. and so safe.

But now I hesitate to go forward because I am afraid to loose it again. I know, I will be able to move on someday, but just not now.

All these sadness and happiness made what I am today.

Thank you my love and good bye.