You don't give a shit, DO YOU?

Again, This is my fault, right?You don't give a shit about me, do you? If you say , that is not true, PLEASE, I BEG you approve it to me.You know, I am not a plant.
If you don't care, it will die. That is it. It is so simple but you don't get it, do you? How can't you? I told you a million times.

Yes I am upset, I don't give a shit.

Right, Right you are right, this is all my fault and I knew this all the time, I ignored it, I noticed it but I was desperately hoping I was wrong, but This time I was right. And I ignored good Akiko. All these devils inside of me were talking so laud and I ignored my angels and became part of devil's club.

Akiko, how many time do you have to make the same mistakes? huh? STUPID!I cannot believe this is happening and I have to feel that was all my fault.

I was so into one thing, Till now I didn't even notice that I have lost my friends, people, things.

What am I going to do?
Scream? Will it help? Cry? I wish I can laugh.Exercises?I have no idea How I coped last time.

Just now, I feel so stupid. That is all.