Reality

It has been like a week, huh? Since I came back from Mexico. Just came back to reality. There is so many things that I have to think and don't wanna think. between my dreams and reality, I am so confused and angry. There is so much of BS and I have to deal with 'em any ways.

I don't give up till I am convinced by the results but you know what? There is so many facts and people try to bend your will and goodness. I am always fighting for not being low. But sometimes they hit me so hard and I cannot even stand up straight. you know what I do? I will get Chocolate and coffee and good meal. Friends will help me, too. But I realize, maybe I should be able to stand by my own. I mean, right now economical independent is impossible('cuz of VISA status), but at least I should try emotionally independent.

people are coming in to my life and leaving me alone.Even you are surrounded by so many people, why I feel lonely? I just wondered.