life is not fair

You know, recently I just feel that strongly. Life is not fair. Maybe because I am getting older? or because I never expect myself? do I expect too much? I am not trying hard enough?

No, no no no no. I DO try hard, thta is what I know. before it was much easier. Because I knew I should not expect myself or believed that I will never be better than anybody. please don't misunderstand me. I still don't think I am better than anybody but you know, somethings I am good at, sometimes I feel I can do more, that motivates me, too. BUt these days, trying really hard and being hard worker can be nothing. you know it is like, the person who works really hard, and that is it.

ANd I feel like I am a stupid. it is not only work. relationship between people, friends, and lovers too.

I guess I am too sensitive or something. the word people say or ask, sometimes hurts, you know? maybe that person didn't mean in that way, but I took it different way and I was almost teared apart.
Just don't pretend like you are my friends. that is all. I get confused really easily.