Do I pick wrong guy?

According to my boss, I pick wrong guy.

Do I?
Let's think about my relationships between guys... Relationships? Not many.a couple of them weren't so great. I had this guy for a short time. I really liked him and I think I still like him in a way. But he doesn't know.

I had terrible time with men, so many times. I would think all my tears came out from my eyes. Surprisingly, there is still my tears.... Do I have some kind of tank or storage behind my eyes?

Seeking for the person who let me be myself and can make me feel better about myself is too greedy? I thought, it was basic staff for any kind of relationships.
I unfortunately am sad right now. My heart is breaking AGAIN.
I guess I should stop /or avoid these situation.

I am so alone. I don't see my friends any more. Everyone is busy for their lives, of course, but just everyone just started to have family, and I feel like I am alone. Less friends / chance to hang out or limited time.
I am not blaming, I actualloy envy them. Although I am so not ready to have family. I just want to find the one that I can really talk to.