Transition Point

I guess that is where I am standing.

Transition point.

So many things are so diffucult for me.
Because I cannot think things like before or I realized things I believed in was something different.
And there is Friends, Family and lover. So many people and I am alone. How could I possibly feel lonely like this?

Am I depressed? I don't think so. Most of the time, I am just working and day dreaming but once in a while IT comes to me and gets me.

I am so scared of IT.