P.S. I love you

I watched this movie.

Just think my life. or imagine losing someone you really love. Luckily, I haven't lost anyone yet. Well my mom's best friend passed away a couple years ago. It was painful just to see what my mom was going through.

Ad thought about my best friend. When I was in college I was hanging out with my best friend every single day, we fight over a little thing, we can be mean to each other some times, we can be really like sisters. I didn't realize how hard not to have her around me when I started life in here. I regret something that I couldn't show her how much I appreciated her company.
and so on.

I have been making mistakes to be with someone, quite a lot, I mean, about boys, you know.
I've been just trying and see what is important in my life and what I want.

Recently, I kinda see what I want in my life and realized I shouldn't waste my time for something that I really don't want or need.

It is just wasting. And trying to force myself to adjust to someone is not right. never will work out. Just right person will come around and the person will just fit perfectly into my life. yeah yeah I know it sounds like just "wish" but I guess that is what's gonna happen.

hmmm. I am just making my life difficult. What would I do that?