BORED

I am so bored by myself. I think I am becoming officially boring. I know I am not that funny girl but I didn't think I am THE boring girl.

I am kinda anti-social person now. I should try a little hard. I am becoming real lazy.whining, bitching, complaining?
Girl! Stop now!
I should start something new.

you know recently, no one calls me.I know it is because of me. I was kinda anti-social for past 6 months or so, is this kind of compensation of that?Man, How long will take? I have changed in bad way. I wasn't like this before.

hmmmm I should go out more, meet people, talk, inspired,open channels and more.
I am so alone now. I am so insecure.everything is so unsure and I want them to be sure and frustrated.I should be stronger by now. I am 25 year-old-girl and have lived in foreign country for almost 4 years by myself. What am I afraid of? Right.

I can do most of the thing but people thing.It is always difficult , fun and interesting. Every time is different.

anyway, All I have to do is just stop whining and go/do.