Hey What's up

Just 8 of them? that is the Number that I wrote on blog in February.
WHAT'S UP, Akiko!!

right I guess I started Internship and classes are getting a little bit busier, not stressed out yet. I guess, it is more like depression or rethinking about the design or future.

Conversation with my friends, you know I just start to realize all my friends are thinking about their marriage and kids and more! To me it is just too much because I barely take care of myself. But I guess I am 26 year- old woman, I should think about serious relationship? I am always serious about that but I just never thought about marriage. well that could be a little bit lie, huh? well yes I thought about it, like "I don't want to die alone" thing, but that is it. I don't want tobelieve this but I just feel like I am not marrying kind a girl. oops, WOMAN.

well I don't know...
I am just tired of my life, well sorry I just feel I am tired of my life sometimes. I have been running for a long time and some time, I stop and see whole world and friends, lovers, family, my doggy and so on. I know there is more important thing to see right now for me, but it just for me not for anyone else, you know. whatever people say to me, advise me, or guide me, in the end I am the ONE who deicde all these things to be happened in my life.

My mom told me last night, "If you want one thing in your life, you will be able to get it or you can reach to it really close, but if you want to have two things in your life, you have to try really hard and you will have hard time" I guess She was talking about me wanting stay in USA and work in Interior design. huh?well Yes, I am having hard time but I won't give up.

well we will see what is going to happen...