don't push

you know, it mi hgt sound coward, or something. But I am scared of beloging something or somebody.

I thought that was my desire to belong to someone or something. I believed so for a long time. I guess I am scared to death to belong to something/ somebody.

Maybe because If I get something I am afraid to loose. I don't even think I am good enough to keep it or anything else. Lack of self-confidence? I guess so. I would rather not belonging anything/ anybody. But buttom of my heart is desparetly hoping that I wish I could be with something or be able to feel some kind of security.

Billy JOel"Honesty"
I like that song.
there is somethin like.
Honesty such a lonely word, everyone si so untrue.
I agree with that. I guess why it happens is people want to be honest but at the same time, afraid to be hurt then they have to protect themselves?

hmmm