one of these days

Everything, every sigle thing seems the same. the same old , the same old. Maybe, I should thank about that? But I know I am getting into struggles. I can see that from the distance. This is weird. I wanted to go back home for holiday. Usually I don't. Maybe it is like this"people realize how important it was when you lost it" ,that type of thing. After summer 2007, I won't be ale to go home for a year. as long as I get working visa or something like that.

That makes me go home for this holiday. Basically, this is the last chance to go home to get what I need for next 1 year and a half. Everything is moving forword so quickly and I tend to forget important things in my life. I was really focused on things in front of me. I was running so fast, almost I forgot to slow it down. it gets faster and faster and I cannot even see what I was passing by. In one point, I found something ahead of me . I thought about if I should pick that up or not. Usually I ignore a little piece of things. This time ,I decided to pick that up. I slowed my speed down and picked up. What I found was old myself. The person that I was used to be.
At the time, I wanted to cry out loud. I was becoming the person I hated or I despised.

It is very important thing to think or concern about your furture, career wise but that is not the only thing you should care in your life.
I knew. I knew.
It just so hard to balance.