Well well well

You know, I look horrible right now. Because of break-outs. I am stressed. I cannot lie. But you know what, I have been living like "I can die tomorrow or right now without having any regrets"But these days, I was so stressed out I couldn't even see the things right. I was so busy for things right in front of me and I couldn't see things from the distance. How sad it is! One of my friends gave me a hand and I took his hand. Thanks.

I know I look like a crap and all my work abilities are getting slower and slower because of lack of sleep. I felt sleeping was not good. I don't deserve it or something like that. You know what, if you were sick, You couldn't have done anything right. Buddy! I have to take care of myself pressure kills me and I couldn't stand it. Middle of the night, that turns into depression. That feels like hell. I just want to disappear, sometimes. I won't though.

It seems like I am getting myself back. I can feel it, just right now it is just unstable. I just have to watch out. Stay strong me. There are so many people help me and I am not hopeless right? in certain degree, I am hopeless but hey, not everybody is perfect. Some things I just have to accept and keep moving on. Whinnying is not helping you. But if you force yourself to be positive all the time, that is tiring. Just on my own pace.