2 pairs of Manolo Shoes

Yes I spent $900 for nothing! I could have been able to wear 2 new Manolo Shoes!!
But I have been failing this Stupid little Exam!

Every time I failed, I just re-acknowledge myself how stupid I am and can't understand English.
You know, I always forget that English is not my first language. Because I am so comfortable speaking English, somehow. There is always another way to explain things and different expression.

Therefore I expect too much on myself. All my friends took this exam and passed it on first try but me. And I failed TWICE. WTH!

But then, one of my good friends asked me" how many Japanese friends passed the exam on first try?" well..nobody that I know of.
But I am pretty much sure there are a bucnh of Japanese people passed this exam on first try.

It is so hard to accept how much I cannot do things like other people can.
Then I just fell into dark place now. Help!!