I am not that tired

You know, I am tired of being told that I look tired. If I am tired, I know. So please tell me that I don't know.

I hat mondays. Somewhat it is depressing and tiring.I don't know why.And I was thinking about what I should do, While I am in the school and after Fisnish this and so on. there are so many things. The more I take classes, The more things I have do. I never be able to have break. Or shoudl I stop traveling? Oh NO NO NO. That would kill my creativity(I am not sure I have one thoguh).But slowly, I am able to think about going back to Japan and get job and have life in there. It was really hard to think about it before. Because people are the same, they speak diffrent language, diffrent looks but There are so many nice people in here and there. It just matters whom you are going to meet. That is all about it. And If you are nice enough, naturally nice people will come to you. I believe in cycle of reincarnation. Whatever you do is coming back to you.I am not religious but mayb edeep inside I think I just have this buddism. I guess. It just naturally like this. When I am in studio class, there is always zen style, zen like design. But I have never thought about what is ZEN. I think It is really hard to define those things. Because it is related religion. But anyway, as I understand, it is supposed to be calm, peaceful, subtle and quiet.
Why am I talkiong about these things. weird.