I thought...

Well I have been told that I don;t look shy. Well yes, I am and I am so nervous, always have anxiety. When I talking to more than 2 people at the time, I am all panicked. Maybe I just pretend that I am not panicked / I am cool. Actually, I get tired of that , sometimes.
Then why don't I stop doing that? Maybe, I don't want make huge thick wall infront of me and I like people? Maybe. But sometimes, itis too hard and almost I feel like I cannot take it. Then I shut everything.hmmm... sounds very negative/depressed....man.
Sometimes I think I am a loner. Could be..

I am tired. I don't know why. I eat, sleep enough(maybe more than enough), but I feel like something is not working right. Therefore I got sick. But I have no idea how more I can be careful. Anyway, this blog sounds so wack.
well.
gotta run