Definitely

I know. something's up. right? It is okay. sometimes things just happend. But you don't need to be mean to me. you know? I kinda know you don't even wanna talk about it. But I am here and wondering.which I really hate.

I really hate wondering things, especially, wondering about what is going on.
Anyway, It's been so nice weather in san francisco. So warm and sunny. I hope it is not that windy like this. Well maybe it is too much ask, huh?

someone told me,"people feed your weakness" is that true? maybe. so do I always have to hide what my weakness? then I feel like I am not being honest. Maybe I am too open so I am often messed up? I should have known how to defend myself by now, but I don't want to hesitate to do something. I would rather get hurt for doing something than regrecting that I didn't do because I wasscared or I was protecting myself from something to loose.
Anyway, complicated.