I guess I am sad

I tried not to feel it. But I guess I am sad, so deeply.

These days, I am so lost. I don't feel anything. I just appriciate the moment but after that, I'll get lost.

I think"going back to Japan"thing hit my feeling so hard, I didn't even realize.
I guess, this is more correct, try not to realize, huh?

But I've been really lucky that I have been able to meet these nice people in here. I have learned so much about Americans, and myself.


ha.
I am just so lost