learn about myself

I am surprised that I still get surprised by myself. I need to learn myself more.

There is so many people out there and I am surrounded by so many people. But how come I feel like I am alone. lowest point, Akiko! I've gotta stop this.
But I just miss my friends... I haven't met many cool people here yet. I should say, yet.
It's been about 2.5 years since I am back here. I think Tokyo is too big for me. I finally can say it. I gave myself a little time to see how it goes. After these years,I can finally say Tokyo is kind of boring and it is for working not for living. I have to do something about this....

but what.....