I am stuck

I should just apologize to everyone that I am not being very nice. I am just dominated by sadness. I don't know what happen to me and why I am being like this.

I should not let the emotion manipulate me. It is not okay to be an asshole when the things are tough on me. I know that well and then how come I cannot control this??
What's wrong with me.... I feel like I cannot hold things together.

Finally, the temperature went down and we got nice breeze in the city.
maybe I should go for a walk.