Wow it's already September

It's been almost 9months since I am back here in Japan.
This was fast. And weird thing is I still feel like I just came back from US.

Trying to see where I belong. Do not know yet. Am I the person who cannot solve the problem??
I cannot figure out what is wrong and why I feel this way. I am very frustrated by myself.Whatever I do or say is always taken wrong.
I don't know what to do. I am so lost.

I guess this is the time for me to get tougher?