Unhappy person

How the hell did this happen??

All the sudden I am unhappy person! I guess I am very grumpy, cynical, not funny AT ALL.
I have been trying to admit it but now I really have to say I am not happy because I cannot take it any more. I don't want to be in anger all the time and not smiling to anyone.

ha....
Well what can I do ? Let me think...... Museum? Drawing? Designing? Another pretty fabrics? not sure. Great food? great music?
Music... that might work.Good bossa nova music and good friends? yeah that sounds good. Another research huh.

There is no time to take rest for me any more. Everything is so fast and I barely can keep it up. I feel like I am missing something out .

I miss everyone now.